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When I look into your eyes, I know I’m safe, I know that you won’t break my heart, I know that you are genuine. You’re my blessing in disguise. When you hug me I know that in this big big world, I’m pretty much in the best place. Things may be moving fast, but like you said if my mind, heart, and intuition all agrees why question anything. So I’m not gonna question anything and go with this wonderful flow. I’m gonna continue cherishing every moment I get to be with and see you. I’m gonna let you know what I’m feeling and how much you mean to me. I’m gonna take this fairytale and run with it. <3

So life as we know it, is not the same as we expect it. We get what we get because of what we do. We conquer what we set off to do, as for the rest if we don’t fight for it, don’t expect it to just fall into our laps.

in the past couple years, I’ve had my fair share of ups and downs. I learned that sitting around and complaining wasn’t gonna get me anywhere. I seized the day and opportunity and I made a change and decided to go for what I believe was going to be the best thing that has and will happen to me. i thought long and hard, I knew the consequences of what my actions were going to cause me. I made my decision, and I’m sticking with it. 

the first step is the hardest and now that I’ve made it, now it’s onto LIFE as we know it. no more WHAT IF’S, no more I regret, no more I wish I would’ve.. 

Last night I had this crazy dream. My high school boo thang showed up in it. I had no idea why?!?!?!? He looked the same as ever, it was so weird. He was just hanging around with my cousin and I… I don’t know what to say, I woke up thinking how’s he doing, and where he is in life??? I hope he’s doing okay, I hope his family is doing great. Man I miss the old days with him. Straight up teenagers… School, beach, football games, (sighs) life was too sweet. Chicken nugget and honey…. Boothang ^_^ 😜 can’t wait to see him at our ten year reunion hahahaha

Someone once told me that if you love someone let them go, and if they were meant to be with me they’ll come back. I asked them, well how do I know to wait for them? How will I know when they’re coming back?? What if I wait and they never come back?? So many how wills or what ifs came into my head…. Questions after questions, still no answer, he told me just believe.

Should I believe??

When I love I don’t ever want to let Go. When I love I’m always there no matter what. What’s the point of letting go?? What do you do in the meantime?? It’s a time of emptiness because you lack the person that fills your heart.

I’ve listen before and I got hurt. I lost something so important and so meaningful to me. I let it go and someone else picked it up and loved it.

One day I woke up and my heart decided that I was going to fall in love like no other. I remember seeing his face in the hallways at school, and the first sight wasn’t something I cared about. But slowly my heart began to open up and there I was falling for him. The way our hearts combined and the way we felt about each other was something so amazing, nobody could understand. When our hands touched my heart felt like it sank right into his hands, and for that moment of time I trusted him with all that I had and I knew it was right. His smile was something I could picture every time I closed my eyes, and his voice was something I heard in my head over and over at night until I fell asleep. He was someone that I cared about so much that I did all I had to be with. From the first day we were together to the very last time I saw his face, I loved him with everything. He filled in the empty space of my life, and he was my missing piece to my life puzzle. To say he was my first love I don’t mind because he showed me that I was able to love someone and cared about their happiness. He was everything and I knew that if we were ever to part, that I would never forget him. We went through ups and downs like the craziest roller coaster you could ever find. The obstacles we went through were stories to tell for years to come. I could go on and on and say everything I felt and still feel about him but words can’t explain everything, only in my heart is where I’ll keep it and that’s where it’ll forever stay. Nowadays, we aren’t together but I will always have that special love and place in my heart for him. I know that he’s doing good in life, and I only wish him all the best. He’s one of the greatest things to happen in life. I will love him forever and always.